Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Days Like This V

Without going into grotty detail, here is the question: Having made one's bed a certain way (a way that makes one miserable, one now realises), should one grit one's teeth and bear up? Or should one say, the hell with it, life's too short, and move onto something that might be better - or might be equally bad?

In the context of, say, a job, to stay or to quit seems like a simple enough decision. Placed in the context of one's deeper beliefs, the question resounds with conflicting arguments that lead to the eternal questions - who am I? What do I believe? Must my actions reflect my beliefs? Should they?

Sitting at my dining table, looking dully out at a gloomy sky that glowers in at me, I sense I'm working myself into A Mood. The sonorous sound of Boots Randolph playing back to me the warm glow of my childhood makes me lonelier still.
The year-end black funk seems to be beginning early this year.

The question stands. I'm not looking for answers (like hell I'm not), but feel free to write in if you want to offer opinions. As someone once wrote to me, I need a sign, a motif, something to show me the way.


J. Alfred Prufrock said...

1 - New Jersey is drear enough without the end of fall to make it worse. Remedies - Barnes & Noble or the nearest bar.

2 - Can you afford to do what you WANT to do? If so, do it. Seriously. If you enjoy what you're doing, it's not work.


progga said...

JAP, part of the problem is figuring out what it is I really want to do. Right now, I think, "I want to write. I want to travel." Easier said than done, if one doesn't know how to make them real, yes?

lost said...

You write well.
Post more often.

yesbob said...

finally read one jonathan stroud. as with my clumsy luck, it turns out to the third in the trilogy.will persevere ahead with nos 1 & 2 resp.

Phantasmagoria said...

The question is not what do you want to do with the rest of your life. The question is what do you want to do now. Drink a beer, is what I say. Everything settles down.

progga said...

Yes, Ph, I agree with the beer. Change to wine, and I agree more!

I think the trick is to identify broader goals, cascade them into a list of tasks and break that down to a few tasks each day, that you make sure you get done. Win little victories and all that. At least you feel like you're moving, on the road to getting something bigger done.

LOST: thank you.

YB: only you could... blah blah! Get 1 and 2 quickly.